it's been 3 weeks and 4 days since I came back to Hong Kong for my new job assignment and training...

everything seems to be going very smoothly and exactly the way I wanted to be...

yet every morning when i wake up, i feel something is missing...

it seems I'm still far away from my goal, my dream as a pilot...

as i expected, the moment i decided to take on my new assignment, i knew it's going to bug me more than as a ground crew cuz now I'm basically on the same level as the pilots yet I'm far behind into the aircraft instead of being in front...

everyday i seem aircraft land and take off at Hong Kong International Airport and I'm away from Vancouver; I slowly, i realize how much i really miss flying...and i wonder how much long of a road i still have to walk till i step a door that said "Flight Crew"

meanwhile I'm wondering if i take my training as a flight attendant a bit too serious than i really have...

maybe i should relax and social with my colleagues a bit more?

but never-the-less, I am proud to be a Cathay Pacific Airways Flight Attendant.

One day...just watch me, one day...i will have CX Gold Wing on me!


"If you don't go after what you want, you'll never have it. If you don't ask, the answer is always no. If you don't step forward, you're always in the same place."
~ Nora Roberts

“And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years.”
~ Abraham Lincoln

Why do I feel so heavy in my heart right now?

It has been an exciting and fun day at work as Cathay Pacific Airways employee.
Today I had the wonderful opportunity to visit Cathay 747 cockpit and the tour of the entire plane.
I was speechless when during my 5 minutes in the cockpit because I have so excited that I finally get to sit in one and check out all the avionic equipment.
I was so excited that I didn't even ask much questions to the pilots nor even explain to my other co-workers who were with me visiting the cockpit about that feature of the cockpit equipment.
However as time pasting by, I started to feel a bit weird...it was i guess feeling the pressure and my shoulders felt a bit heavy for some reason...
I don't seem to know why but it seems my dream to become an airline pilot is getting stronger and stronger every minute, so strong that i might not able to control it Yet I can feel my fear that I might not able to reach my goal.

Have you ever wonder why you are here...?

Have you ever wonder why you are the way you are...?

Have you ever wonder how life is going to be without your love ones...?

Have you ever wonder what's out there...?

Have you ever wonder what life is going to be without the wonderful invention of photograph?

Alot of people often think being a pilot is cool and high wages and such...
but not many of them really think about how much sacrifice that the pilot made before they actually get into that nice airline uniforms and walking very proudly with the stripes on their shoulders.

I'm not saying that other jobs don't need sacrifice or what so ever...but i'm just wondering is there any other job that require you to give up like alot of things like your family, your love one, your currently high pay secure job and maybe even leaving your home town, to a place, to a company where we aren't similar with and double even triple the work pressure?

Just when you think your family is okay with it meanwhile you discover your love one isn't too happy about it and maybe even risking of leaving you.

You might ask...why? why do you want to be a pilot? it's expensive and hard to find a secure job with high wages and you have to return earlier than most jobs in the work force.

My answer to you, my friends, and probably alot of pilots out there also agree with me, it's all about passion and love with flying. We enjoy the freedom of flight, the freedom of looking down while we are cruising at 35,000 feet and the challenge that we get every second of our flight times.

Is it worth it? Oh yes, I think so...